Thursday, September 27, 2012

I AM....

 
 
 
 
I may be irrational, I may be emotional. I wear my heart on my sleeve for all to see, to use, to abuse. 
 
But…I am what I am. 
 
I would rather suffer with these emotions than go through life unfeeling.
 
I am going to embrace these feelings from now on and use them to my advantage.
 
 
 
 
 

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

“Look and think before opening the shutter. The heart and mind are the true lens of the camera.”
 
 
 

Metaphor for a missing moment




Metaphor for a missing moment
Pull me into your perfect circle

One womb
One shape
One resolve

Liberate this will
To release us all

Gotta cut away, clear away
Snip away and sever this
Umbilical residue that's
Keeping me from killing you

And from pulling you down with me in here
I can almost hear you scream

Give me
One more medicated peaceful moment
One more medicated peaceful moment

And I don't wanna feel this overwhelming
Hostility
Because I don't wanna feel this overwhelming
Hostility

Gotta cut away Clear away
Snip away and sever this
Umbilical residue
Gotta cut away Clear away
Snip away and sever this
Umbilical residue that's
Keeping me from killing you
Keeping me from killing you

Friday, September 21, 2012

I just have not felt like myself all summer. It's as though there are two different people struggling within me to rip free from one another and take off in opposite directions.
 
 
 



“Although only breath, words which I command are immortal.” 



Wednesday, September 19, 2012

forty six and two ahead of me.....

Drunvalo Melchizedek Explains What Happens During The Shift

From The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life Volume 2:

What usually happens is that when we approach this point in the precession where this change takes place, everything begins to break down - all the social structures,etc begin to dissolve and break down. The key that does it is the magnetic field of the Earth. Which as present-day science realizes may also be the key that enables the axis to shift in the first place through magneto- hydrodynamics, where the magnetic field supports a connection where liquid aspects of the earth's composition become solid. When the field collapses, some solids become liquid and become slippery. They have demonstrated this in laboratories. The magnetic field and the electromagnetic field are the key. The magnetic field is what we use to interpret who and what we think we are, and also to store our memory with. We need an exterior magnetic field to retain memory. We cannot live without some form of magnetic field. If you look at major cities all over the world, you will notice that the day before, after and during the full moon there is more rape and murder going on. The reason is that the full moon tends to cause a ripple in the magnetic field of the earth, and this change is enough to take people that are emotionally near the edge over the edge. The magnetic field affects the emotional body.

The Collapse of the Magnetic Field
Imagine a planet where you are at a point on the precession where things are starting to get out of balance. Suddenly the magnetic field of the Earth, over a very short period of time (usually three to six months) starts fluctuating a lot and undulating. What happens is that people start losing it. They go crazy. That is what breaks down all the structures of the planet. Without their balance, everything falls apart. The magnetic field will go away entirely for at least three and one half days. Usually you will see a buildup of chaos.

Morphological Grid Interactions
Every time one person plugs into the consciousness grid, they increase the signal from the grid. There will come a point where people will just start remembering and start breathing this way. Children will have the least problem. The older you are the harder it is.

The Final Time of Axis Shift and Dimensional Interface
Hopefully it won't really get crazy out there - if it does, that is where the idea of Armageddon comes in. If you look back through the records, you will see that when the axis shifted in 1400 A.D., in South America, they all started fighting and warring with each other, because their emotions got so strong. Hopefully, that won't happen.

The mind of an artist is a lonely place sometimes...


Concepts float about in the darkness, briefly flashing like fireflies in the night, bumping into one another, misshapen and bruised from being tossed about on the waves of inspiration.  
 
It is a dark, shadowy place, full of half conceived notions, failures, and ideas that will never see the light of day. 
 
And I am often trapped there too, floundering in the murky waters-stumbling through cobwebs and fragments of bones, feeling my way down dark hallways, slick with years of decay.  
 
Occasionally, I trip upon a flicker, a spark of inspiration.  It illuminates me for a brief time, lifting me up to the light.  I am whole. 
 
I want to invite you into the deep recesses of my heart and mind. Make you see what I see, feel what I feel.  I want you to know who I am, at my very core.  I want to share myself with you.  Illuminate us both.  
 
But for now, I will retreat into myself, drawing in my wings, tucking my head into my chest, arching my crooked spine until I am fetal.  
 
I am alone in here.  
 
 

these moments are fleeting.....


inspired.....






I held him close and listened-
His bones spoke to me
From within the cobwebbed confines of his soul.
Ours was a destroying sort of love
The hours, bleached by time.
He belonged to dreams
Hovering in the shadows,
Calling down stars.
I climbed into the sky-
At the edge of the world
I found him
Covered by sparks,
Smoldering-
I bowed my head before him and wept.
I counted the stars
And secretly recorded the time
Etching his name into my heart.
He breathed out his soul
Into me
And whispered a single word in my ear
Mine. 




One step
           and we might fall off the edge
                                                 of eternity.




Monday, September 17, 2012


"my heart is a thousand years old. I am not like other people...”

— Charles Bukowski



Blame Aphrodite


Blame Aphrodite

It's no use
Mother dear, I
can't finish my
weaving
You may
blame Aphrodite

soft as she is

she has almost
killed me with
love for that boy

Sappho


Enigmas...


I want to tell you the ocean knows this, that life in its 
jewel boxes
is endless as the sand, impossible to count, pure,
and among the blood-colored grapes time has made the 
petal
hard and shiny, made the jellyfish full of light
and untied its knot, letting its musical threads fall
from a horn of plenty made of infinite mother-of-pearl.

I am nothing but the empty net which has gone on ahead
of human eyes, dead in those darknesses,
of fingers accustomed to the triangle, longitudes
on the timid globe of an orange.

I walked around as you do, investigating
the endless star,
and in my net, during the night, I woke up naked,
the only thing caught, a fish trapped inside the wind.


photo by This Too Shall Pass Photography

Don't Go Far Off


Don't Go Far Off

Don't go far off, not even for a day, because -- 
because -- I don't know how to say it: a day is long 
and I will be waiting for you, as in an empty station 
when the trains are parked off somewhere else, asleep. 

Don't leave me, even for an hour, because 
then the little drops of anguish will all run together, 
the smoke that roams looking for a home will drift 
into me, choking my lost heart. 

Oh, may your silhouette never dissolve on the beach; 
may your eyelids never flutter into the empty distance. 
Don't leave me for a second, my dearest, 

because in that moment you'll have gone so far 
I'll wander mazily over all the earth, asking, 
Will you come back? Will you leave me here, dying? 

Pablo Neruda



Tuesday, September 11, 2012


“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”




Everyone I know....goes away in the end...


but I am still right
here

chasing happiness…



I feel as though I have been chasing happiness my entire life. 

Chasing friends, chasing lovers, chasing dreams.  They seem to always be just beyond the reach of my fingertips. 

For once…I wish they would chase me instead.



Am I not worth chasing?

Monday, September 10, 2012

Rapture....


I see you lingerin' 'round
Like a bad idea
Peddlin' salvation
Threatenin' damnation


I've had enough of your voodoo
About to drop you like Cain
You better hope he takes you
Before I do



“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.”


photo by This Too Shall Pass Photography 

Friday, September 7, 2012

What remains....





Touched-
the tip of his index finger spiraling about
my soul, binding me to
          this
moment.

I am whole-
filled with his breath
that waxes and wanes
above me.

Our only witness-
the skeletal trees
that embrace me,
grounding me to this
           truth.

Our souls merge-
dovetailing.
The moment when we wrench
          apart
tears me in two.

This is what remains.

understand...


Wednesday, September 5, 2012


“I'm not afraid of storms, for I'm learning how to sail my ship.”
Louisa May Alcott

Tuesday, September 4, 2012


“Only in quiet waters do things mirror themselves undistorted. Only in a quiet mind is adequate perception of the world.”


photo by This Too Shall Pass Photography


Plato’s Allegory of the Cave


Reality has been nothing more than shadows and light, chiaroscuro playing on the wall.

We have to learn to transcend our preconceived notions of what is true in order to catch a glimpse of what is really there.  We have been prisoners, chained to a wall our entire lives.

I have seen the shadows and know them to be fallacious.  They tease us, offering us a taste of what could be, what we think we desire, what isn’t.  They lead us astray.  These deceptions can be nice for a while, deceiving us into a false sense of happiness, but is it worth it?

Which would you choose?

Stay in the cave or step outside of your delusions?