I don't deserve this treatment.

‎"When he told me he loved me, I laughed. Not in a mean way, but lightly, warning myself really, more than him, not too take it too seriously. You have to be careful with your feelings, I think. It's a mistake to let them go just because they're summoned."

Capricorn

Capricorn quakes and shakes with the Earth shattering changes Pluto and Uranus deliver to your sign in 2013.  Uranus in your house of the unconscious brings awakenings and realizations which help you to become liberated from past fears and complexes. You ego is being washed away, and Neptune in Pisces helps with this process. Like Scorpio, you are being asked to "Evolve or Dissolve" this year. Surrender and humility are the keys to survival right now for Capricorn. Those December Capricorns have made it through the "dark night of the soul" thanks to Plutonian initiations in the past three years. Now, you will teach others about soul-infused personality. Don't expect outer situations and conditions to fulfill you, you will disappointed and dismayed.  Early January Capricorns have an opportunity to release, regenerate and rebirth themselves on the new earth, and the birthing pangs may be intense. Affirming that you are spirit in matter - "I am a spiritual being having a physical experience" can help you navigate this cycle. The foundations you create now personally and professionally will have staying power into the future, and Saturn through your house of future will help with creating resources. Neptune through Pisces will re-awaken your dreams for a better life, and feed any creative urges. Pluto in your sign transforms and heals your physical body, any health issues that arise now need attention so that deep healing can transpire.  

dissect

1: to separate into pieces :

 

the pieces will never fit back exactly as they did. 

there will be stitches, raised edges, brusing

and permanent scars. 

you have made me this way.

too many of you, too many times.

there is no healing after a certain point. 

a person deserves more than this. 

 

 

I've been kicked around.....

Well i've been kicked around
Whatd'ya see
Am i alright
I'm alright
Well i've been kicked around
Whatd'ya see
Am i alright
I'm alright

I once had a heart
I was ripped from it
Chewed up then spat out
Like a cherry pit

And if i seem a little hard
It's just that i've been kicked around
I don't know how i got this far
The way that i've been kicked around

Well i've been kicked around
Whatd'ya see
Am i alright
I'm alright
Well i've been kicked around
Whatd'ya see
Am i alright
I'm alright

I once had a soul
It was torn from me
I won't cry a tear
I will carry me

And if i seem a little hard
It's just that i've been kicked around
I don't know how i got this far
The way that i've been kicked around

Don't worry
I'm alright

Being unwanted,
unloved,
uncared for, 
forgotten by everybody, 
I think that is a much greater hunger,
a much greater poverty 
than the person who has nothing to eat 

~Mother Theresa

Resolution for the new year

As people don’t seem to like the person I currently am….

Maybe if I turn into a hermit, hiding out, no communication to the outside world, I won’t get hurt so often or so easily.  

Maybe if I hide my emotions, keep my mouth shut, and do not reach out to others, I won’t be pushed down, ignored, tossed aside.  

Maybe if I become resolved to live a lonely life, devoid of friendship, my heart won’t break and ache constantly.  

What do you think?

Guard your soul from those who wish it ill. Be careful who you bare it to.

You cannot measure someone else's pain or feelings based upon your own.  We all feel things differently.  We all react to things differently.  Some of us are more susceptible to pain and express this pain in ways you might not.  Some people can ignore the pain, some people can move on quickly from overwhelming pain.  And some people cannot. They are entitled to their feelings and deserve love and kindness to help guide them through the darkness.  Comparing your pain to theirs isn’t good.  It only creates feelings of “at least they have (blank)”, “at least they are (blank).  Believing that someone’s pain is not valid due to their particular situation (more money than you, bigger house than you, more friends than you) does not help. 

 

People deserve time to grieve.  You might grieve less than them, or not at all.  Everyone copes in their own ways.  Do not throw someone away for feeling more than you.  That person could just teach you a valuable lesson in living and feeling deeply. 

 

Be careful with people’s hearts.  Be careful with your own.  Guard your soul from those who wish it ill.  Be careful who you bare it to. Choose carefully.  Open your heart gradually. 

 

But always, no matter what, remain the loving, caring person you are.  

 

There is always hope….

 

 

 

 

open me

You Lied!

"You Lied"

Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone
Inside sleeping, my heart beating
You know that you tried to hide it
Couldn't you have said what you meant? Oh...

Time heals, time congeals around us
Endless hours of wasted moments
Understanding, not demanding
Your eyes tell what you feel inside

Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone
Inside sleeping, my heart beating
You know that you tried to hide it
Shouldn't you have said what you meant?

YOU LIED! 

 

be careful....

cries for help fall on deaf ears....

James Lee

David Sauceda

 

 

This project explores the concept of identity as a membrane, intangible and invisible, outside the physical body, being the filter of information between the environment and the individual's psychological self. The membrane is in a constant state of change and adaptability, leading to the development of an identity.

The awareness of that conception of the individual as such, is a collective process that is not finite, but is in a constant state of development and malleability.'

 

 

 

natalieclapp

kellydurette 10

kelseybeckett 18

melissacookeart 13

The Great Wall of Vagina

 

What we wrote on May 2, 2012: Winner of the Erotic Signature international sculpture prize, master of the art of bondage casting and creator of his most recent masterpiece 'Great Wall of Vagina', Jamie McCartney has caught the attention of art enthusiasts, sex enthusiasts and basically everyone enthusiastic about this extremely erotic, socially conscious installation that has been 5 years in the making. The age range of the women is from 18 to 76. Included are mothers and daughters, identical twins, transgendered men and women as well as a woman pre and post natal and another one pre and post labiaplasty. This is about grabbing the attention, using humour and spectacle, and then educating people about what normal women really look like. The Great Wall of Vagina is a 9 metre long sculpture made of 400 plaster casts of vulvas, all of them unique, arranged into ten large panels. The world Premiere will be in the Brighton Festival Fringe in May 2011.

Philipp Banken

Inside Nostalgia

Kikyz1313

choose madness

“We need others. We need others to love and we need to be loved by them. There is no doubt that without it, we too, like the infant left alone, would cease to grow, cease to develop, choose madness and even death.”

 

 

listen to me............

“The voice of life in me cannot reach the ear of life in you; 

but let us talk that we may not feel lonely.”

 

 

death rattle

So you're gone and I'm haunted...

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

and you don't see me.....

it comes down to this......

It comes down to this: 

Your kiss,

your fist...

We live this life together, but we experience it alone.

Take away your memories, the connective tissue of your life, and what's left? You may be breathing, but in the late stages of memory loss, you aren't really there any more. You have unraveled.

We live this life together, but we experience it alone.