I AM....

 

 

 

 

I may be irrational, I may be emotional. I wear my heart on my sleeve for all to see, to use, to abuse. 

 

But…I am what I am. 

 

I would rather suffer with these emotions than go through life unfeeling.

 

I am going to embrace these feelings from now on and use them to my advantage.

 

 

 

 

 

“Look and think before opening the shutter. The heart and mind are the true lens of the camera.”

 

 

 

Metaphor for a missing moment

Metaphor for a missing moment
Pull me into your perfect circle

One womb
One shape
One resolve

Liberate this will
To release us all

Gotta cut away, clear away
Snip away and sever this
Umbilical residue that's
Keeping me from killing you

And from pulling you down with me in here
I can almost hear you scream

Give me
One more medicated peaceful moment
One more medicated peaceful moment

And I don't wanna feel this overwhelming
Hostility
Because I don't wanna feel this overwhelming
Hostility

Gotta cut away Clear away
Snip away and sever this
Umbilical residue
Gotta cut away Clear away
Snip away and sever this
Umbilical residue that's
Keeping me from killing you
Keeping me from killing you

Haunt me......only do not leave me in this abyss...

“You said I killed you - haunt me, then! The murdered do haunt their murderers, I believe. I know that ghosts have wandered on earth. Be with me always - take any form - drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!”

 

photo by This Too Shall Pass Photography

dreaming...

“Our life is composed greatly from dreams, from the unconscious, and they must be brought into connection with action. They must be woven together.”

they go on.....

“The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. stone crumbles. wood rots. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on.”

I just have not felt like myself all summer. It's as though there are two different people struggling within me to rip free from one another and take off in opposite directions.